fiction piece: this is the end of the world
a short story about impending apocalypse, family, and inevitability
hello everyone!
i’m back with another short story from a few years ago. this one is actually directly inspired by a nightmare i had in april 2020. during the first few months of the pandemic, i had frequent, vivid nightmares, and this was one of the worst. i remember jotting down the first draft of this story in my notes app during a zoom meeting the morning after, the nightmare still so visceral and present in my mind that i knew i needed to commit it to memory. i kept it in my notes app for awhile, eventually expanded it and moved it to my google drive, did some editing, and submitted it to my college’s literary magazine! it was accepted, and was published in their 2020-2021 edition.
please enjoy this is the end of the world.
Last night, I had a dream about the end of the world.
[14:59]
There are too many suns in the sky in my dream.
I don’t know how or when the suns arrived. Some scientists are on the television, trying to explain their numerous theories, jargon spilling from their lips. I watch them with weary eyes.
I do know two things: I am in a city, and I am alone.
(I don’t know what city. I don’t know why I’m alone.)
There are people trying to save us, of course. Some of us would actually like to preserve the human race, rather than trying to burn it all down. There are scientists, government officials, philosophers, religious leaders, and more. They all stand outside and point and write things down on pieces of paper. They each hypothesize, each draw up ideas to save us and begin to enact them. We watch as dozens of plans spring up and are put into action all across the world.
One by one, they all fail.
[12:17]
I don’t really care about the people who are trying to save us, because I am in a city at dusk, there are too many suns crowding the sky, and I am still alone. I wander rain-splattered streets looking for someone who will hold me.
I know it is the end of the world. Perhaps that is pessimistic, perhaps I should be looking at this all glass-half-full, but all I need to do is look at the sky, and there is no doubt in my mind. This is the end of the world, our final extinction event. The apocalypse. Armageddon. Whatever.
I pause by a shop with dozens of televisions all playing the same news channel, feeling like a character in a cheap sci-fi movie.
The news anchor is staticky, and his tears roll down his face in flickering silver-white pixels, and he is choking on his own words. I can barely hear what he has to say, but it turns out I don’t need to, not really, because that’s when they put the countdown clock on every screen in the entire world.
All the plans they created had failed. Those we trusted to lead us had not been able to save the world and instead, decided to simply give the kindness of letting us know how much longer we had to live.
Ten minutes, they say. Ten minutes until the end of the world.
[10:00]
My blood feels frozen in my veins, and I stand by the shop window longer than I should. The city noises around me grow louder, and all the wailing and sobbing and screaming just meshes into a large cloud of static in my ears.
[08:39]
I’m losing time, I realize, and I spring into action, running from the shop and down the street. I’m still alone, and I want so desperately not to be when the world ends. I turn a corner and keep running, pushing through crowds of people inconsolable with grief for their lives and their planet. I don’t have time for that grief.
I don’t know who I’m looking for, just - someone, anyone who I can be with before the suns get closer and ruin everything. My mother, my best friend, my ex-girlfriend, just - anyone.
The streets are slippery, and my legs move in that stupid and awful way they always do in dreams. Never fast enough, like wading in the ocean while the tide pushes me back.
[06:02]
I miss the ocean, and I realize with a pang that I’m never going to see it again. The heat on the back of my neck grows, and I miss with everything inside of me when that same sensation simply meant I hadn’t applied enough sunscreen at the beach. Lost in the memory, I can almost hear my mother chiding me for it later, as I admit to her that I need a bit of aloe lotion to ease the sting, but aloe lotion won’t be able to fix me now.
It’s stupid, you know - the things you think about when you’ve got five minutes left to live.
[04:47]
I turn a corner and suddenly find myself in the middle of an empty street.
It’s still dusk, which is odd, because there are so many suns in the sky, blaring down at us. In-between the stars, though, is a hazy, half-grey violet. The street around me is wet and shiny, and its sharper corners glow in blues and pinks and purples. It’s strange and beautiful, even though it doesn’t make any sense.
I stop running. There’s no one else here.
How did I get separated from my loved ones? When did I leave behind my family and friends, or when did they lose track of me? Have they all seen the countdown? Ten minutes isn’t very long, so do they even know what’s coming? Have they prepared, are they holding each other close? Is my mother clutching onto my sister, brushing a terrified tear from her cheek?
I’ve never wanted my mother’s comfort more in my life.
[03:13]
I tilt my head up. The streets have gone silent. The rioting, the wails of grief, the screaming, have all died down. People are just waiting, terrified, bones shaking in their sockets.
Out of the silence, though, I hear the soft lilt of a song. Someone is singing, maybe three or four blocks away, but in this hushed city, the music carries. It fills me up and wraps its arms around me, but it does not warm me. The suns are managing that on their own.
[01:28]
I wish I wasn’t alone. I miss my mom and dad, my brother and sister, all my friends who I never said good-bye to. I can’t even find solace in wishing for them to be safe, for them to be okay. None of us are going to be okay.
[00:45]
I close my eyes. The light from the suns glows in pulpy reds through my eyelids. I breathe in, slowly. The ground is solid beneath my feet, but the air is humid and the heat is beginning to press in, unavoidable. I let myself squeeze my eyes shut even tighter for just a moment, to wish that this was only a dream.
[00:11]
I breathe out.
[00:07]
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hi again! i hope you all liked this short story! it’s very different from my usual writing, although it was rather typical of the majority of my writing from 2020 (apocalyptic, confronting inevitability, contemplating the nature of humanity, etc).
once again, as this is an older story, it is presented unedited and as it was when i submitted it to my college’s literary magazine. there are a few changes i would make now—reword a few phrases, maybe work with the pacing a bit—but for the most part, i’m quite happy with it.
it’s also outside of my usual writing as i tend to strictly write in the third person when writing fiction, and very rarely write in the first person outside of poetry. that said, as much as i prefer writing in the third person, i find it’s good for me to occasionally step outside of my comfort zone and try something new. this piece would read much differently in the third person, and i don’t think it would work nearly as well.
also, just a fun tidbit, but as i said, this was inspired by a real nightmare i had towards the start of the pandemic. i tend to be a vivid dreamer in general, but this one stood out to the point where i had to write it down. i wasn’t the only one—overly vivid dreams caused by the stress of the early pandemic were actually a documented phenomenon.
anyway, that’s all for now from me. i hope you liked this story, and i’ll see you soon!
becca ☀️
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